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You are so full of grace. I truly love you and look forward to meeting you if we go to New Mexico this summer. Rose, I know what your heart is speaking of. I have been going through a few set backs lately and I have been spiriling down very rapidly. I seem to have lost some of my faith to fear. It just gripped me. I have found out that I have to have surgery again to control some nerves that were severed 29 years ago to prevent the electrical conduct of my heart to quit stopping and having cardiac arrest after cardiac arrest. Seems these nerves have reconnected and are starting to be a problem with to much electrical conduct in the heart wiring. Anyway, they are getting everything ready in San Francisco for surgery, plus I will be getting another defibrallator in June and they are removing my spinal bone spurs. It's the manifestation of the Sudden Death Syndrome aka Long QT Syndrome that keeps me rattled up and panicky. My faith in Jesus has pulled me through the hardest, but I am still human and I feel vulnerable, and yes scared. Like I said, this fear just jumped at me out of nowhere, when I had held on for dear life in prayer to my Savior. But today the strangest thing happened Rose. I have been so down, especially about Chester and his pain. He saw the spinal surgeon almost 2 weeks ago and the surgeon told him it was to late for surgery for him that he was to far gone. If he performed surgery, the least comfort from pain he would get would be about 10% relief. Chester was devastated. He gave up. And then today around 4:00 PM, our time, the surgeons office called him and told him that the insurance company had approved his surgery and they are doing this on Monday, May 12. I almost fainted and Chester was speechless. He said that he can return to better health more then 50% with surgery. He barely went to a Workmen's Comp hearing on the 1st of May and his attorney said he was going to do everything to get him fixed and I guess it worked. This was a blessing for both of us, especially Chester. He has waited almost 3 years for this. So Monday is his big day. I will ask for prayers for him, as he is not very healthy. His blood pressure is so high and he is a diabetic, they might have to give him blood pressure medicine before. It's his first surgery ever. We should make a good pair, the both of us trying to take care of each other. I will be having my surgery not to soon after his. So this was a good blessing from The Father. Well dear friend, I will leave you in peace for a little while. I love your courages spirit driving all alone to Santa Fe. There must have been an angel on all four sides of your car. May you be blessed with good news. I miss you. Love to you and all on the EBLT Board. Forever Friend, Rosa/QT Rose
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