My Baby and the Angel
I am writing this in case someone is feeling
the way I did. I had wanted a third child, but it seemed it just wasn't
to be. After completely giving up and actually being much older than I had
hoped for, I did become pregnant. We were all very happy. But then in my
third month, I began having problems. I followed the doctor's orders, but
I knew that something was very wrong.
I began praying to God and asking
about babies that don't make it to full term. Do they have spirits? I wanted
to know. Do they go to heaven? My questions went up and were heard, because
soon I received an answer, though it didn't come in a way I ever imagined
One night as I lay in bed, a fast
tunnel of light approached, and an angel appeared near me. Suddenly, I knew
the reason he had come. He was there to escort my baby back to Heaven.
As a mother, I yelled for him
not to take my baby. But it was meant to be, and the angel gathered the
little spirit to him. Now I knew with certainty that my baby did have a
soul, a beautiful shining spirit, as all God's children do, born or unborn.
And I knew my child would be taken into Heaven by this angel who was so
beautiful---a handsome young male with a very Renaissance appearance. I
have been comforted to know my child is in the care of such a noble being.
I know one day I will see this
child of mine again, when I go to be with the Lord. I feel that all my family
members in Heaven still have a strong spiritual bond with me. It is the
strength of love that reaches from Heaven to Earth and from Earth to Heaven.
God's reasons for everything are valid. We may not understand them today,
but understanding will eventually be given.
After my miscarriage, I had a
terrible year with many deaths in our family. But the Lord continually answered
my prayers and helped me keep my sanity. This was my reward for my faith
Like Betty knows, not everyone
is ready for knowledge. It is often much later after having an experience
that we are given the understanding. And when it comes, it makes us aware
of the vast evil we must stand against as well as the greatness of the Lord
and of his love which is immeasurable.